So you may be wondering why I had 2 blogs running with different content in each.
Well here in Australia you can not do anything to do with fertility as well as adoption, so much so that when you have your medical done you must submit that you will go onto birth control.
Sounds crazy I know, especially for someone who tried to get pregnant my many means, to have to go onto birth control. At first I was like, yeah right I will tell you this and also go onto to IVF, how would they know if I don’t tell them anyway? Well as much as I would have loved to deceive them I think that I was really deceiving myself. It doesn’t matter how much money I throw at getting pregnant, and believe me I have thrown some money at it in the past and not so past I spent nearly $900 on tests to start IVF again but its not going to change the fact that we can not afford IVF. That pipe dream is over and the sooner I get my head around it the better it will be, I want to be happy but I keep on tormenting myself with this. Our answer is to give adoption everything we have. Not 50 % not 75% but 110%. This is where our family is.
So basically this is the end of my lying to myself.
We am infertile, I am notgoing onto IVF and it does not happen for us naturally.
