So sick of ……………… Thursday, Jul 19 2007 

Uncategorized hopeful 11:10 pm

Waiting! I just don’t know what to do, I’ve been waiting all my life. So now I have another waiting game to get into the training just to fill in the darn application. I think I will start on my life story so that its again not down to the last minute. I know that even after the training and the application stage there will be allot of waiting once again as we have to wait to get a social worker to do our home visits and unfortunately the home visits can’t be back to back so I think that can take a good 6 months too. You would have thought I was a patient person but really I am not, this is why I lose interest in allot of things. But this, of course is to make our family, its something that I haven’t gotten sick of for the past 18 years.

I think that I like IVF as I think I liked the ‘process’, you were always doing something. So of course I never lost interest. This will test my patience’s for sure, but I just must keep my line of thought on track, tick off my jobs as I do them as the old saying goes, Rome wasn’t built in a day.

This is a picture of how we want to paint our babes room, those people of course are not us as we haven’t done it yet but love their idea. Below are 2 light fittings, unsure of which own we might use, maybe the cloud. We will paint the ceiling in navy blue like a night sky and use glow in the dark paint to but in stars.

 

Update Tuesday, Jul 10 2007 

Uncategorized hopeful 11:15 pm

Got another email from DHS advising that they had found out first expession of interest form which I find amazing because by all accounts I’ve been told that they loose alot of things. So all of the training sessions are filled up for this year so will have to wait for new dates for 2008. At leas this way i can get my shit together before then and have my BMI below 25 as well.

 

Expression of Interest Monday, Jul 9 2007 

Uncategorized hopeful 5:04 am

Today I got home to find a new ‘Expression of Interest’ in the mail from DHS. I hurriedly open and filled her all in, will just have to wait for Dazza to sign his life away. Ooooh I’m so excited :O

 

So a new decision has been made Friday, Jul 6 2007 

Uncategorized hopeful 12:21 pm

As the title gives away, we have decided to change our plan of attack with the adoption route.

Originally I had misgivings about Infant Adoption here in Australia, the fact that they are ‘open’ adoptions with the birth parents having visitation rights really through me for a six. I guess it came down to low self esteem. Worrying that the child would prefer the birth mother over me when visitations came around. But I have actually gone past that now. To think I was worried that after raising a child for 364 days of a year, that it would all be forgotten with 1 day of the year. I must have been mad. I even think that the biological grandparents could play a part in the child’s life, how much more with its life be enriched with more sets of grandparents??? Surely it could only be better. After all, how often would it be?

I have also come to a realisation that it may actually be quicker than international adoption. One of the social workers at DHS has told me that if we have our file sent to Thailand, it probably would go over in the 2009 allocation. Well I’m sorry but I don’t want to wait that long. There is only 9 files sent in a year so this years is full, 2008 is filling so that only leaves us with 2009 and beyond. Compared to 20 babies in Victoria every year, think my odds are better here. I guess as the birth parents get to help choosing a suitable family for their baby, our life stories had better be good. After all its only the information that they read about us in these stories that they will be basing their decision on. I will employ every option available to me to make ours the best darn reading ever. Surely then we should be snapped up in no time????

So our next step is to be invited to a training session before applying and being assessed. There is no cost involved with Infant Adoption except for the County Court fees once the adoption is to be finalised. So fingers and toes crossed for a smooth journey.

 

Blood tests back Tuesday, Jul 3 2007 

Uncategorized hopeful 12:14 pm

So today I called the doctors office to find that our blood tests are back so now we can move into finishing off the application forms, get some better passport sized photo’s, possibly on the weekend, and send in a cheque for $1291.05 and await out 3 day education group appointment.

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Darren has been really funny of late, making me laugh out loud when talking about the child we would like to receive. As much as I tell him I’m not after just a girl, he keeps on advising me that I’m painting the room for a girl and everything I’m doing is girly. How can a cream neutral room be girly. I tell him its the accessories that you put in the room determines if a girl or boys room but he just won’t have it.

He has even gone as far as to tell me that he has dreamt that we get a girl. I have told him that it would be unusual as the country we have chosen of Thailand is mainly boys but will he listen. Nope. I have asked him to open himself up to the Universe and to project that we are getting either twins of boy/girl or a sibling group. I do believe that what you put into the Universe you will receive so if I put it out there as if it is ours already, it will happen.

Above is the new bed I would like to get for the babies room, although we do not know how old our child will be when he/she arrives, at least this can be changed into a junior bed as well. So know all I have decide is what other matching furniture I will require to fit out the room.